9/15/2012

Someone left a message on the machine "May I speak to Catherine? Hello?" and I thought it somehow related to us being bad people.

"Try to learn to breathe deeply, really to taste food when you eat, and when you sleep really to sleep. Try as much as possible to be wholly alive with all your might, and when you laugh, laugh like hell. And when you get angry, get good and angry. Try to be alive. You will be dead soon enough."
Edit 9/4/2014 - I've been laughing much more these days. I really sleep and really breathe, but I eat too fast still. I argue with my brother. I feel alive again, something I couldnt say when I first made this post.

"Neither stress nor happiness is contained in things, events, or situations. Things are just things, events are merely events, situations are only situations. Its up to you to supply your reaction to them. You get to choose."
This is something I know very well from being schizo. Every event is just that. An event. I have to bring the attitude I want for it to live up to for what it SHOULD be. Tonight I'm gonna laugh my ass off. Or dance my ass off. Thats cool too.

I just realized, I can change subjects or move to something really fast in conversation.
Edit 9/4/2014 - Thats not necessarily a good thing. Chill is good too.

"Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm."

"Anyone who stops learning is old, whether at twenty or eighty."

It felt good to stay late a few minutes at work just to help Donna with one quick thing.

I used to laugh so much and I keep comparing my life to back then. Its a guaranteed losing scenario. Dont compare anything. Besides the only reason I liked it so much back then is because I was so used to it.

I need to call my friends more. Especially Emily.

WOW. Life is so good listening to the first TATW song after a week of dubstep. It is so peaceful and blissful.

Being schizo is so like being OH LIKE A BOSS. It really is. Thinking back to my racing thoughts days I used to have to be sucha boss to overcome those situations.

Being a drunk all the time you would want to feel lifes pleasures and fail miserably. You would go into work drunk and it would just be terrible. You would learn nothing out of life!

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